Friday, July 18, 2008

Teens world...







Been mom at a young age it's frustrating, especially when you don't have emotional and family support. I know because I went through a lot of things in my life but, it was my choice to lay down and cry and feel sorry for myself all my life or get up and start learning from the past...


At this moment I'm 30 years old I have two wonderful kids and a awesome husband. Right this moment I can say that my life is what I always dreamed it would be, but it wasn't always like this.


I wasn't raised by my biological mother (she never wanted to have me) so I was raised by my fathers aunt. Beautiful lady, I adore her. She was always there for me even if I didn't want her to. Great part of the family were jealous because she was raising me so you guys can imagine what a hard time I had those days.

My mom (the one that raised me, she will always be MY MOM) decided to move from Puerto Rico to NY and took me along with her, things were going fine until I turned 13. By this time I had learned how to defend myself pretty good since I was getting beat up a lot in school, those days were pretty hard for me. For many people the number 13 represents bad luck, well at that age I felt the same. At 13 I was getting beat up at school pretty often, felt very lonely without real friends and finally at 13 I was raped by a so called friend. I didn't know what to do I thought nobody was going to believe me so I kept this to myself which was very bad because I was to innocent to know how to deal with all this strange feelings. I felt angry, lonely, guilty , low self esteem all this at the same time.

When I turned 14 my mom and I moved back to Puerto Rico. At the age of 15 my mommy suddenly dies (I was at home with her by myself) imagine! I called 911 but they didn't arrive ontime.


I had to deal with this and many things. But, my life really changed when I got pregnant at 17. WOW! when I found out my entire life went through my mind in a second. How was I going to give love to a baby when I had so many feelings crushed inside me? How was I going to raise my child if the father was so irresponsible? At this time I was living with my father it was the first time we had a father and daughter relationship. My father had a wild life. He would come in and out of jail, he did drugs etc etc etc. I didn't want him in my life but since my mommy died I didn't had many options.


When my baby was born back in 1996 (it's a boy!!!) my partner and I managed to move to an apartment, same night we moved in same night I found out he was doing drugs (that was another shock for me) I had to start thinking on my own. I started planing my life without him thinking for a way to get things going for me and my baby boy, and guess what? I had a lot of hard times as a teen but those hard times gave me the straight to be who I am today.



Today I'm married to a wonderful husband (his been an angel in my life and an excellent father), my son is 12 years old he's so respectful and loving and we have a beautiful daughter age of 3. I may not be rich and famous but I'm happy because I know anywhere my mommy is right now she must be very proud of me....



Right this moment there must be a teen or a mom facing a situation like this. Let us know what you think. Share with us your experience, thoughs or any advice that could help our tiny moms take good decisions in their life. Help moms figure out a way to deal things with their tiny moms. This blog was not made to judge, was made to help. Remember, the grass is always greener on the other side....